"Me-Time"

Right now I am "sneaking" on the computer after I forced my way onto it and kicked my hubby off. I am supposed to be practicing my presentation for this weekend, but am so tired of doing all the stuff for it, that I just want some down time. My husband did "steal" my computer all day today to do office work, so I feel a little justified taking my baby back. Don't I deserve some down time? I have a job...it never ends...it is called stay-at-home-Mommy. Sometimes the grass is greener, and I picture myself in a career, "working" all day, but loving what I am doing. Then I come home to my three children who are so excited to see me, because I have been gone. They run to me, and tackle me like they do Daddy. They sit and cuddle me, because they want to, and not just because I am the only one there to do that with.
Then reality hits, and here I am the maid, the waitress, the butt-wiper, the referee, the scapegoat, the big nerd with no fashion sense, and the "meany." Daddy is the hero of the day, one glimpse of him is like a glimpse of god. They can't stop climbing on him, they don't even want me to touch them when he is around (unless it is Grant and it is bed time, and I am the only one who has the milk in the boobs).
I know I have a lot of friends who are working Moms, who would love to be at home with their kids, shaping their futures, with no obligations except to their families and selves. It just isn't easy on either sides, working or at-home as a Mom. For now, even though it can be tough, I think I am in the right place. So, my computer is my outlet, and I stay up late to get much needed "Mommy time." Boy do I need that break from my 14 hour-a-day, 7 day a week career!